waiting and waiting!

Tomorrow, April 29th is my official due date.  I never thought I would have made it this far, and from the looks of it, I will probably go over my due date.  Its amazing..just an absolute miracle!  At last week's appointment I was dilated to almost 4cm, and a week before that I was 2, almost 3 cm.  My doctor thought I was going to have him last week, but he has his own plans!  I can't stress enough how grateful I am to have made it this far.  I feel like my body really can carry a baby to full term, and that is an amazing feeling.  However, I'm not going to lie...the past few weeks have been a little rough.  I have absolutely nothing to complain about...I'm healthy and the baby is healthy (to our knowledge), and that is all that really matters.  Yet, Jason and I are ready to meet this little guy.  My pelvis and thighs are hurting pretty bad with all the pressure.  I feel like I am 70 years old, and I'm not sure how I will push a baby out if I already hurt so much!  I like to go for walks everyday, and most days I still do take Wesley on walks.  It gets harder each day though, and I am finding myself taking smaller and smaller walks because they wear me out! I am only getting a few hours of sleep each night, and that is the hardest part to deal with.  However, since those are my only two major issues I do feel very blessed.  I still love feeling his little movements, and I do love the baby belly.  I love to look down and see the little (ok, not so little) round lump of baby.  I will miss it....but I do catch myself looking at old pictures wondering what it feels like to have a skinny belly again :-).  I think the other hardest part is the waiting...and not knowing when he will arrive.  It is true that the last month feels like the longest.  I need to keep myself busy because I am driving myself crazy wondering each day if this is "the day!"  Just one or two months ago I was in no hurry.  It really is easier to feed and care for a baby inside you.  There are no diapers to worry about yet, no spit up to clean, no car seat to lug around; and yet where ever I go, he is always with me!  I am nervous about the birth, but I am ready and excited for the new adventure.  Birth really is an adventure and the start of a crazy, amazing (and scary) journey.

39 weeks! 

We bought Wesley a strider balance bike a few weeks ago.  It is a little bike with no peddles.  This bike is supposed to teach toddlers how to balance, so when they outgrow this bike, they can transition to a regular bike without using training wheels.  He still is pretty slow and wobbly on it, but hopefully he will get used to it soon.  We are hoping it will help with his gross motor skills.  When ever we go out to ride the bike he knows he needs to wear his "bike hat."  He really can't stand wearing the helmet, but he lets me put it on him so he can ride his bike.  We had to get a helmet for ages 5 and up because all the toddler ones were way too small, lol.  We also bought him a fun little kid sprinkler since he loves playing in the lawn sprinklers so much, but he is scared of it.   He is in a stage where he is scared of everything.  Hopefully he will outgrow this stage, and not turn into his mommy who is also scared of everything!  :-)


These are not very good pictures...I have been a lazy picture taker recently...but they show him on his first (maybe second) day of riding his bike.   They make him look like such a big boy.