circle of life

Today I had to put my Lily bunny to sleep.  We had her for about four years. She had some serious conditions that were putting her in a lot of pain, and I decided that the best thing to do would be to put her out of her pain and suffering.  I am comforted knowing that she is in a better place and doesn't have to suffer her painful afflictions anymore.  However, I feel guilty and sad that I didn't do more for her.  She was a sweet bunny.  I have always been a bunny lover.  They are just so cute and fluffy.  When Jason and I were first married, we had a pet rabbit named Gordon.  He was the sweetest little thing, and acted a lot like a dog.  He only lived about 8 months or so, and we loved him so much that a few years later we decided to get another bunny.  We got Lily at the swap meet.  She was the tiniest, fluffiest, cutest little bunny.  She had a much different personality from Gordon, and wasn't as affectionate.  She was our baby for two years until we had Wesley.  Unfortunately, she peed a lot on carpet, and Wesley was our priority so she had to stay in her cage more than I would have liked.  She was a good bunny, and saying goodbye to any pet is hard. This is not something I wanted to do two days before being induced, but it needed to be done.  I am now trying to focus on the positive of getting to see my sweet baby in two days.  It just makes me appreciate life, and I am joyful in knowing a new life will be joining us very soon.  We love you Lily and will miss you!!! 

So, on a happier note... I am sooooo excited to finally meet this little sweet thing that wiggles and pokes me all day!! I am getting induced on Friday at 8pm.  I would have never imagined at the beginning of this pregnancy that I would go over my due date.  I really didn't want to be induced, but it is nice knowing there is an end in sight.  I studied a lot on natural labor, and I really wanted to give it a try.  However, I feel really good about this, and as long as the baby and myself are healthy, that is all that matters. I haven't been having really any contractions, or anything that would indicate that he is coming soon.  I was a big baby, and Wesley was big for being a preemie, so I dont want to wait too much longer and risk having a really large baby.  Who knows, maybe this guy will be little?  We will see in a few days!  Yay!!! It is hard to believe!!!!  :-)  :-) 

In memory of Lily:

She was so tiny she fit in the palm of my hand